I didn’t know then that I was California-bound
except the fibers on the back of my neck
knew something was wrong
with where I was
and love didn’t make me stay.
I was levitating in the rabbit hole,
pleading for someone to choose for me
because everything I wanted
it was love in my hands
but it was also love
in my sneakers.
And it let me go
just like I watched you go,
tired of holding my feet
to the floor.
I had love still dripping from my shoelaces,
dragged wet traces across the whole country.
I stained every sidewalk I found
with the love that I left.
But I was California-bound,
I was always heading here,
and the love that I couldn’t keep
steered me on.